Saturday, February 20; 1:15 pm
The Inn at Serenbe
Over the
past year, I’ve been trying to give more attention and better care – to myself.
Like everyone I know, I get a lot of pressure from multiple fronts. But I’m
more acutely feeling…knowing…that this stress this time around is hitting me
harder and deeper than ever and cannot be handled in my heretofore energetic, ‘whatever”
way. This time there’s a lot more reverberation going on, the kind that might
leave me reeling and damaged if I’m not careful.
So I started
eating better. And I renewed yet again my commitment to moving my body more
regularly. But this is old hat, right? Probably 7 of 10 of us take these actions
the first 3 months of each New Year.
I know I need
to go further. Deeper. So I committed to asking myself-consistently-why I do
what I do and why I do it the way I do it? How much of it is driven from inside
and how much is external? And most importantly, who or what I am doing it for?
Strolling today
at beautiful Serenbe, I’m coming to realize that there is ferocity within me
that I gotta get a grip on. Just like the grounds stretching out around me: although
it looks barren and sad, beneath there is a fury of activity going on. There’s buds
being formed, dirt being shifted, and life being born. Its happening precisely, routinely,
methodically, and scientifically as it does every year. It’s moving according
to Spirit’s holy design and brilliant plan, and knows how far and hard to push
and pull and stretch as it prepares for what will be a glorious manifestation in the spring.
I’ve asked
Spirit to help with what’s roiling inside me as well. I’m asking for help
to mold, shape, and pray it to a place where it serves the greatest good. Where
it allows me to act and react in ways that heal and not harm; ways that reverberate
with life and love and hope.
And, just
like Serenbe, I’m expecting a glorious manifestation too.
